I can't

I can't express my emotion now! too grieved! u tried to be humor, tried to be joyful when we came. Actually, I could see the pain behind your eyes. I also tried not to be touched because I knew that u didn't want to be compassionated. I wish I could help u more than that. I used to be in the situation that u r in now.
Everything seems to be collapsed inside u. I know u r worrying a lot, u have to shoulder more. It's unfair for u in the very important time now. I hope I can help u more and u can overcome this serious situation.Hope that ur mother will be healthy as normal.! To painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!